What I've been longing

I have been longing for someone to come along
who can make me feel that i truly belong
I have been longing for a good companionship
a better kind of a working relationship

I have been longing for a shoulder to lean on
when things went bad into my direction
I have been longing for a good lending ear
who just listen quietly to the sounds of my tears

I have been longing for arms to wrap me around
and comfort me when I am feeling down
I have been longing for a hand to hold
and would never let me go until we grow old

I have been longing for a body to warm me right
to lie beside me during those cold lonely nights
I have been longing for soft lips to kiss
and can spare me the sweet eternal bliss

I have been longing for a loving heart
who misses me even if we are not apart
I have been longing for the person to love
who can satisfy my longings of what I'm dreaming of...

My Song: I Found Love by INOJ

Once, I accidentally heard a song that captivated me. There is a certain magic it brings every time I listened to it. I downloaded it to have my own copy in my MP3 player. I keep on playing the song over and over and yet, I am not getting sick of listening to it.

The song entails about meeting the perfect person destined for us. How have you been spending too much time with the wrong ones, believed in every promise they made, and getting hurt in the end when they finally said their goodbyes. And when you are about to give up on love, there, you will find your perfect match in a most unexpected time. And little did you know that you already found love in your crazy world. Like, your destiny came at the right moment when you are ready to love again.

In my realization, sometimes, you will find love when you are not even looking for it. It will just come into your way perfectly. Even no matter how many times you get hurt, love will still bloom into your heart. And when that right moment comes, for sure it will be a love to last forever. And as the song goes... "I found love, because of you, I know I can give love back to you..."

The Great Player

You play the game very smart
You can easily capture the crowds heart
Make them smoothly fall for you
Without making any great effort to do

Your style can make them go jolly and wild
And your smile can make them cool and mild
Your tantalizing eyes lift them up to cloud nine,
And leave them dreaming to kiss your lips so fine.

Your unquantifiable stunningly good looks,
Cannot be calculated even in a mathematical book
You really can make them feel soothed and warm.
With your undeniably irresistible charms

You are extremely one of the renowned MVPs
Gleaming brightly like the heavenly bodies.
Youre a great player for such a good game.
Showered with glamour and immeasurable fame.

Lucky for me I got your kind attention,
Making other jealous, well thats my impression.
And become the most excellent lovely couple
Which everybody thinks were inseparable?

We shared good times for a couple of months,
Exchange some thoughts to build intimate plans
We fall in love deeply with each other
And thought this love would last forever

But then unexpectedly you change
Leaving me with this feeling so strange
That you suddenly have a change of heart
That everything you showed was just a game's part

Am I just a game you just have to play?
After having some fun, youll run away.
Well then my dearest great player
You just broke another heart so tender.

I’m the Right One

I can see how happy you are
Now that you found your star
I have wished I was that someone
I just realized it when you’re gone

I should be the one being with you
To share the passionate love for two
I should be the one experiencing bliss
And not feeling this self-mocking hiss

I should be the one kissing those lips
But all I can do now is to silently weep
I should be the one holding your hands
While discussing our intimate plans

I should be the one caressing your nose
While we’re both lying on bed so close
I should be the one feeling your warmth
While being locked tightly in your arms

I should be the one laughing at your jokes
Though corny but can be funny till I choke
I should be the one who loves you a lot
Your special someone that I can be not

Now I regret that I did not try to care
About the love that you once shared
All the care that before you have spent
I am really missing those good moments

I should be the one to be yours forever
But you found him and you’re together
I should be the one that is meant for you
But that will never going to happen too

When You Left

We’ve been together for so long now
And I needed time for my own somehow
Sick and tired of our petty fights
I just want you to get out of my life

When you have walked away
I felt okay all through out the day
I have never really thought,
What happiness it has brought

I never felt this much light and free
Since no one will be here to bother me
I didn’t even shed a tear in my eye
When I hear from you the word “GOODBYE”

But why does my heart feel so incomplete?
That something’s missing with every beat
Maybe I’m just thinking that I’m wrong
But why do I feel this way all along

I thought I wanted freedom to live
But I was a great fool to believe
I know I am just trying to deny
That I’m living innocently in a big lie

Maybe you’re the one destined for me
Someone who will spend forever with me
I really don’t know what I’m feeling
That it is you my heart is calling

I just realized it now that you’re no longer mine
The things I don’t understand somewhere back in time
Now, I just wanted you to know
That I really don’t want you go

Losing Grip

Still living a life full of tears
Facing the future with such fear
Feeling the pain inside so strong
Living a bitter life for so long

My heart is still waiting with pain
As my mind even settles in vain
Holding on for the broken promise
Dreaming to feel again the stolen bliss

Locked in a world I never dreamed of
When I was still feeling deeply in love
Never thought it will lead me to harm
Losing gradually this comfortable warm

I’ll start to look for a spark of hope
In this frozen world where I grope
I’ll try to find my right place
On this long and winding space

Don’t want to stay here forever
Can’t even stand to be here any longer
I realize this is not my true world
I should not live here alone and cold

I should do what’s on my mind
Leave this bitter past behind
I must do what’s best for me
Move on to my life completely

I always dream of this day to come
That I’ll move on and be who I really am
Free myself from ultimate darkness
Find my place of belongingness

At least I should know for now,
That I’ll be starting a new life somehow
Coz I am now going to take a big skip
To my past I’m going to lose my grip

Make It Happen

Most of our intimate moments
Are being passionately spent
Yet it will never again
Make this thing to happen

Your gentle touch
I really miss so much
Yet it will never again
Make this thing to happen

Your tender kiss
Gives me such bliss
Yet it will never again
Make this thing to happen

Your irresistible stare
Put my body into flare
Yet it will never again
Make this thing to happen

Your affectionate embrace
It reddens my petite face
Yet it will never again
Make this thing to happen

The sound of your voice
Surround me with sweet noise
Yet it will never again
Make this thing to happen

And in your heavenly arms
Feeling comfortably warm
Yet it will never again
Make this thing to happen

All we have floated like balloon
Drifted and gone so soon
And it will never again
Make this thing to happen

I realized one thing now
Have to accept it somehow
That it will never ever again
Make this thing to happen